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“It was a winter, the relation of a snow, and I w have a group of friends together to eat hot pot.eaten while on the snow. A mischievous girl to go to the collar boyfriend Risse snow, I all of a sudden Also thought of before, reminds me of our study in snowball fights, I thought of his clothes to Risse snow. w distracted to see me there,  and I said to cover up a bit cold, he off the jacket to me.

“I all of a sudden, and do not know w or for him. My feelings have not, and we played back then eat hot pot, I would stop to drink cup.

“Wake up time, w in my bed. Wine did not wake up, dream it woke up. I have strange drunk himself into that look like, but still able to dream, and dreams come there are still his shadow! That wonders if he or she a headache or pain, I leaves itself of arms of the w … … w into my body at the moment, I would have revenge Fiat succeed! “
l also subconsciously to stirred cup of coffee, some blurred vision have become. At this point the hall surprisingly, only the metal crash voices. I know that at this time of the l, was not an easy feeling.
“It was winter vacation, I go to j, do want to do their own, I thought I was in retaliation to succeed, but in fact? I did not see his shock and surprise! When all over, he calmly told me that I also love, but can not and I get married, because he was in high school, and a girl on the occurrence of sexual relations, and the girl of his abortion, there may no longer childbirth, the girl is his female friends. At that moment, I have nothing to say, even tears are to only feel that they were fooled, that the feelings of their own over the years,Since that precious lost all significance. I’s’ revenge ‘become ridiculous,’ and ‘I have found that the feelings of the logo, just based on my own wishful thinking, my naive on!
“If I said before that the concept of sexual or emotional, marriage, and many others in the past about the responsibility, then in my mind since the only measure left only the feelings of a sexual no longer and responsibilities relating to marriage or even love … …
“I eventually broke up and w calmly. Reading University for a few years, I have grown up, is no longer a cry of the child, is no longer fragile, vulnerable to injuries. Experienced that long-drawn-out first love, has undergone and w sub-points and, and, I think they will no longer be easy to fall in love with someone else, until a year ago, encountered p. “
l said, lit cigarette, such as sophisticated look very mature. Smoke spread to four, so that her face blurred. I suddenly recall the university, Jiang, Yu Heng’s a song: If you quit smoking. The story goes on, it began with the opening of gas lightly.
“In fact, from one into the school, I heard that p. He is our son of a Prada Hand Bagsprofessional well-known predecessors, professional standards in our schools and even our well-known line. I remember him thus. In addition, we are fellow , to pay tribute to the addition of a few years friendliness. p test back department, I am in the department’s Office far seen him, very strange, and I always feel as if we had known before. Later, we played a number of shallow land dealings, each time to see him, I feel like an ugly duckling, in a non-academic achievements, and he like a giant,stood before me, let me look up and worship. As long as he appeared, I could not help heartbeat.
“I’m looking forward to close to p, but carefully avoided him because I do not want to let him see my cowardice and small, He could not help but imagine the idea from time to time, even just saw him, was also pragmatic. Department to open a number of post-graduate courses to allow undergraduates to attend each time, I have to go early, sitting opposite the classroom, waiting for his shadow, looked at him to come far, and a group of people into the classroom and then, to last until class rings, rush into finding a furthest away from his position, his every move will have incorporated into their hearts. He laughed I laughed, I frown on his heart. To tell the truth, a university student, I did not how to study hard, those days, I must be crazy like a professional book reading for only a little bit and he shortened the distance. I One day, when he re-look at me, I no longer hide behind the shadow that’s an ugly duckling.
“I started weaving in the heart of a Cinderella story, the story may not yet had time to put an end to the beginning. A coincidence, then listen to smash all. On that occasion, the department invited a well-known professors to give lectures, followed by open forum, p went to, I also had to go with.
p is obviously very familiar with the professors will break affectionate when they talked, I heard professor asked how to p Kobayashi, Professor Lin has your prospective son-in-law really good … …
“Then everything around I can not hear the. Until the closing, the people are gone, I was pulled students. They can silly, flat open space weave a beautiful dream, into their sets, in fact, are blowing up their own colorful bubbles gently touch on the broken.I refrained from sad, desperate to tell myself that nothing, nothing can not happen, on as a dream, now awake, and the sun is still bright. However, p is so outstanding outstanding, and I love him so … … “
“It’s not all good things can belong to you.” I can not help but interrupt. “But I can not be reconciled to, you know, I am not willing to be so easy to give up on.” L looked at me, a single word to say.
“I tried to inquire about Kobayashi, she’s near my hometown in the city to study, and I at the same level. Father is a well-known scholars, and p is home, both regarded as childhood. I have seen pictures of Kobayashi, about is the kind of well-behaved obedient girl, not beautiful, is not too talented, but very much liked.
“I know all of this, I ordered to stay away from their own p, but he did step by step closer to me. Finally one day, he invited me to join him to attend a meeting. I can honestly say that in addition to p addition, the meeting itself very attractive to me, and many professionals will appear where. When p evaded come upstairs to see me, I read in his eyes a surprise, it let my vanity had been met. In order to meet, I made careful preparations, from the clothing, hairstyles and even the color of lipstick are picked up another pick. I did the first time to participate in the gathering, was still a little nervous,talking with p ratio, or that I am still the ugly duckling cents inconspicuous. p I obviously care very much, much more than his age of maturity and sound way within the crowd, at the same time showing your care for me. On that day, watching the brilliant smile p, I suddenly thought, why not to retreat from the war? Why not look Kobayashi competition? From my information about Kobayashi, I is not necessarily worse than her! I would like to fight, we must!
“In the future, always have a variety of reasons and p together. Like God’s intention to arrangements for us to meet. Because there are too many places, we similar. We are drinking rice wine concept of Prada UK, he read out the poem It is my mind; we appreciate the goods, together with coffee Wong Kar Wai’s films, he went so far and I feel exactly the same; we even know each other in the thinking at the moment … … In this way, I enjoy working with p together happiness, while also into deep fear and anxiety, the fear that my heart p secret, for fear of him away from me.
“One weekend, a group of people together to watch the exhibition. Come back, others have done, and I left him back to the school. Stopover at a cafe, p that you sit in.. Cafe ease of music, the first Back to p alone and so close to the face, I can feel his eyes shining, can feel their heartbeat, so slow and did not dare to hold his head high.
‘I know you like me. ‘P like very casually talking about these words. I feel stiff all over, I do not know how long it had only feel their hands have been p hold. “
Gradually from darkness. l lit another cigarette.the table, the number of cigarettes smokes only half on by her. “Do you think p love me?” L once again asked, I am speechless to Answer.
“But, we are in front of carefully maintained a distance, only if he rented a small house that is our paradise. Often laugh at him, watching his shadow, I believe that only he is I love this life! I even thank God, so I met him and let my life because of his exciting.
“However, the fear of losing him but if the accompanying video. Me and he can only escape the eyes of others, and can not live in public society. Because he is the Lin family of the prospective son-in-law, he could not deviate from his parents and his friends leave the the cause of his family are inextricably linked to his girlfriend.
“I think of the existence of Kobayashi stricken me sad, and even with p crying for no reason at all. I believe he loves me, also believe that his difficulties, he gave up Kobayashi, it means that he gave up an easy path to success , and the cause for him, it is too important.I only hope that he can believe that: by virtue only of their own efforts came to fruition, and I have and his face all the determination and ability. May be in the real face of all this is how thin can not afford!
“It was Christmas Eve is my birthday, which we have already planned birthday together. After Christmas, p going to travel, then in the New Year I will not see him. When I was happily prepared to birthday, to prepare for Christmas Festival when Kobayashi has suddenly come to Beijing.
“Christmas Eve morning, although I desperately ailing, tears fall down or stop. No matter how p comfort to no avail. He finally walked to the station to meet Kobayashi. At that time, I have a strong sense of foreboding, I will never lose p.
“Birthday that night, when I visited many times and p bar that I and other p, my birthday can not do without him, even though I know he can not come, but I look forward to the occurrence of a miracle. At the very least, I thought, p would call me, do not. I repeatedly to call him, finally, his return a,  Simply told me that he can not come. I heard on the phone the voice of a girl, it has to be Kobayashi.
“Since then, up to a week’s time, I almost did not sleep the night, only crazy like a letter addressed to the p. P me and the acquaintance, to us every detail, I love all of his writing on paper. and so I finished, and feel that life is really going to limit any time, anywhere can be collapsed over the past no longer wake up. “
P eventually away from the l. “That day, I actually did not cry, let the firm have surprised myself.” L said, forced to smoke in the Village by out.
“I will be a letter addressed to p a little bit of all the pieces, and then call to get a large s, and he went to the disco, exhausted after drinking a bottle of wine at one go. Wake up, it is in the s the house.
“Recognizing s very occasionally, he me a lot, for me is like treating a child, I always feel that he, like father, like, so that I can rely on. P will run out of all my enthusiasm, I have do not believe in love.
“S given me a sense of short-term practical, let me feel that they have to rely on, no longer helpless. In his arms, I can temporarily forget the p, s dilute p my thoughts, love and pain.
“And s to get along for some time, frankly, between us and focus on the situation, at least I think so. This relationship is a two-way does not exist who suffer, who take advantage of the Prada Purse , responsible for the emotional needs, rather than sex itself. I would not because of this relationship and that the other side should love me, it should be on me. If we say that ’sex’ will bring about some sort of injury, then this is the root cause of the feelings of hurt.
“Suddenly one day, as if to reply in the thesis, I have never felt the emptiness and loss. University for four years, I have done? Only a field of emotional disputes? I started to have never been to a profound reflect on … … “
Hall up the visitor flow and relieve the music sounded. l on the sound of the music has gradually been flooded, as have love and hate have been submerged by the same time.
Upon graduation, l can stay in Beijing, but she gave up. She chose the remote city of a professional unit counterparts. “From the bottom of his heart, I want to see p, there is no background, relying on their own efforts can be successful.” L said, triumphantly head. “Now, I no longer p, could be laughing with him. I want to make him take a look at, without him, I still live very well.” A good strong young heart does not mean that there is no pain, and this pain, often are not known.
“I do not hate anyone, and sometimes do not hate even more terrifying than hate. Just experienced so much, I think I have enough psychologically prepared to take the points and separation again. In fact, apart from the feelings of outside , there are some important things. you know that song? “the price of love?” the price of love is that it church growth and a strong person. ”

A piece of green soothe the anxiety of the summer, a curtain block the hot afternoon sun, in this music filled the quiet bar, I sat with her relative. She is the kind of very woman, some South flirtatious woman. A blue coat lining of a white skirt, I said: “The color of your clothes really cool.” She laughed, eyes curved, and a very soft voice: “I have in mind that it is a very pure color . “At this time her face passing trace of anxiety, added:” I can throw in a pure feelings, the hope of repentance in the hearts find tranquility and calm. “
Her language is written in concise and beauty, and I almost truthfully recorded a woman in emotional and moral choice in the heart murmur … …
   
A wrong date
My family is overseas, is a company in our hometown Jinan branch staff. I am a working and living are very serious people to Jinan two years, I slowly in love with the city. Although it is not fashionable, but the city’s cultural atmosphere, so I feel it everywhere is full of human infants, I would like to integrate into the city, often on a local network with Jinan where the person or people who live in Jinan chat. I really like Shandong Province, then the straightforward, passionate, I have many such friends, also had a wrong date.
Let him cold, we are the same age, I am able to get on the Internet a friend of mine, but also talk about the most, and even often with a child to talk about things with each other as a pleasant feel. He and I are one person in Jinan, Jinan, he is a state-owned company’s senior staff, so we are strongly advised to meet in a late spring weekend last year.
Also in such a quiet bar, I and the cold as they are now and I like you face-to-face. He said: “did not expect such a beautiful you are.” I smiled and replied: “You did not expect so handsome.” Then we both laughed: “flatter each other.”
To me that night and I feel great, we have it from the static out of a walk to Qianfoshan, cloves and fragrant flowers filled with mountains, a warm, eager to diffuse it in my heart. I take the initiative to embrace him, he is also very enthusiastic response to me. I am not a flighty woman, but that spring night, I really can not control myself, I was so close to the needs of fashion jewelry, there are psychological as well as physical. I divorced four years, a person more than two years in Jinan, really eager to let me have a preference for men, to comfort solitude and loneliness. Night lay in his arms, I am selfish to even think: In this city I do not have a fixed circle of friends, not a single center of a circle of life, I do not need to who is responsible, I can play again, this night the past, I or the original me that he is still a friend.
Thus, in the spring of that romantic evening, I enjoyed the warmth of a man. This man is not my husband, and even can not say that I love … …
    
Why make things difficult for a woman a woman
The fact that I did not imagine that, as dawn broke up after that, on the contrary we are not made to meet frequently and eventually rent a house of cohabitation. Encounter never married when he and I together is such a feeling. I told him understanding, more and more cause he is a very good man, a person with the ability to hard from Yantai to the provincial capital, and his strong operational capabilities, is the backbone of a major department, I also witnessed him a friend of his respect. I also know that his wife is also a very virtuous woman, was at his house, the most difficult times and his marriage, Now a person to work in Yantai, but also with children, serving his parents, and his original home is poured lecythus men do not help. Three months later, all of a sudden, I just woke up from a dream - this is me? I slept in another woman’s husband around, forgetting that they have been hurt, but this injury has been passed on to another woman. I have wholeheartedly love my husband, but he did not cherish, gambling was. Han’s wife, Patience to manage a home, but he is the husband of another city in another gentle woman. I feel guilt, then, in a morning, I left a note addressed to the cold, moved out.
I thought a game that ended in an old story, I was a disgraceful role, I would like to correct, I left him, he has refused to leave me. I left, cold look around for me,My company, a friend’s house, he had to inquire my message, and even in the shopping center Sunday in front of me. I changed the phone, he asked to a new number, and then send me information every day. He said that he was a sincere wish to give me a home, he wants to go back and his wife divorced, and that there is no love marriage is immoral, he should be a house, the money home to his wife, and then and I live together … … every day you fat, fat, sometimes I really was very moved. On several occasions I almost told myself to return to his side, the message written on my phone, Just press a button, my ears rang songs on “why women make things difficult for a woman”; that woman looks like the pain in my brain kept emerging, my hand is back. Why make things difficult for a woman a woman, his wife, where patience to manage a household, she was going to die, the men here want to live to love another woman, she would know, it is a kind of costume jewelry!
Believe me, if that date is a game, then days later to get along, I have liked this man. I said I like the human touch Jinan abuse, is also thought here, he needs is what I need, how can I sit back and enjoy those too? He finally found me, or in the location of our first date, I can not see his eyes, tears filled her eyes together in love there is love there is begging, let me feel that I left his sins. He said to me: “Why do you consider so many others? Who came to this world a few decades, As long as you my love is sincere, there is no need to worry so much. “I said:” Without me, your wife and children will live a very calm, because I painful dissolution of marriage, the children find it hard to give up on both sides, then not at home so painstakingly built up, and I spent a whole year time, before the wound healed. How do I let another woman had not made any mistake, because I went to bear such suffering? “That night, I failed to convince him, and he can not convince me, and I said I was only a game, he should treasure the original home, he looked at me said:” You play my feelings, I hate you. “
Sleepless night for me. I waver between being admitted and homes, and I come up with two pieces of paper, a painting of his wife, a painting, I, and then write all I can come up with reasons, compared with whom he can leave. My eyes always come forward to the kind-hearted woman in the collapse of pain, his youngest daughter’s innocent face, I can not accept the establishment of calm and suffering in the well-being of others.
    
Love is more important than what is
These days I have been very trance, walking in the street, and sometimes drive them, and I do not perception. He continued to send me a love or hate or information, even in the information, he said: “son of the hands of bailiffs, with the sub-” I feel that our feelings have not so pure, I can find to describe this the feelings of the right words. He said that there is no love marriage is immoral, when his wife, married with seven match points, the soul, there are three points can not always communicate the three points is what he needs love, and he found me this three points.I do not think so, I think we have more desire. I do not believe that a and his eight years, so that he felt satisfied with the seven women, will be offset with a woman meet by chance that one-third fit! What makes him so Lost? What will not desire?
My friend, his friend even have to persuade me: “to another woman does not want such a result?They gave you this truth, how can you do? “Yes ah, I did not also want a marriage? I, how can this be? I can say, because I think a person in addition to love there are even more important. He and my friends have asked me, What is that? I say is moral and responsibilities, they all shook their heads, they said in the love of the Strip, and moral strength of a too weak. We are talking about emotional outside marriage follow the rules of a game can be, but this game is too difficult to handmade jewelry, As I have, game after game was still stinging, because I think the strength of moral everywhere ah! He is paid a true feelings, but a “real” characters that people can really cynical it? Really brought it certainly is better?
He said that I abandoned him, I stood a double torment — I live up to his true feelings, I am going to hurt another woman. I have a good long sleep, to sleep 0:00, 4:00 will suddenly wake up, I went swimming, doing their own strength, in the pool would like to yell, Pressure in my heart I can not talk of repentance. Can not have their own favorite love is a pain, a person in the soul and conscience and moral acceptance of torture, is a painful ah!
Foot of snow, I am a kind person, on the bus I will give the elderly a child seat, but how can when I can not help themselves, to love a family man? Do anything to consider the feelings of others, do not want to own, not to impose on people, I live up to his true feelings for him I have guilt, but in this game was always hurt you. My soul and feelings of being a double torment, I should not suffer;His suffering, he also of the suffering, even if we only have itself to blame you, his wife of innocent people, innocent children, not to hurt the innocent, my soul on a relief. I do not want someone to pay me the price again, I hope my experience, my deep sense of guilt, let more people awakening. There I would like through your column to tell the cold: cherish your home, do not lust for their own hurt your family, a person’s happiness is constituted by a combination of factors, and your well-being of the persons concerned Ping’an, and your happiness will be doubled, this is my body from the pain of.