A piece of green soothe the anxiety of the summer, a curtain block the hot afternoon sun, in this music filled the quiet bar, I sat with her relative. She is the kind of very woman, some South flirtatious woman. A blue coat lining of a white skirt, I said: “The color of your clothes really cool.” She laughed, eyes curved, and a very soft voice: “I have in mind that it is a very pure color . “At this time her face passing trace of anxiety, added:” I can throw in a pure feelings, the hope of repentance in the hearts find tranquility and calm. “
Her language is written in concise and beauty, and I almost truthfully recorded a woman in emotional and moral choice in the heart murmur … …
A wrong date
My family is overseas, is a company in our hometown Jinan branch staff. I am a working and living are very serious people to Jinan two years, I slowly in love with the city. Although it is not fashionable, but the city’s cultural atmosphere, so I feel it everywhere is full of human infants, I would like to integrate into the city, often on a local network with Jinan where the person or people who live in Jinan chat. I really like Shandong Province, then the straightforward, passionate, I have many such friends, also had a wrong date.
Let him cold, we are the same age, I am able to get on the Internet a friend of mine, but also talk about the most, and even often with a child to talk about things with each other as a pleasant feel. He and I are one person in Jinan, Jinan, he is a state-owned company’s senior staff, so we are strongly advised to meet in a late spring weekend last year.
Also in such a quiet bar, I and the cold as they are now and I like you face-to-face. He said: “did not expect such a beautiful you are.” I smiled and replied: “You did not expect so handsome.” Then we both laughed: “flatter each other.”
To me that night and I feel great, we have it from the static out of a walk to Qianfoshan, cloves and fragrant flowers filled with mountains, a warm, eager to diffuse it in my heart. I take the initiative to embrace him, he is also very enthusiastic response to me. I am not a flighty woman, but that spring night, I really can not control myself, I was so close to the needs of
fashion jewelry, there are psychological as well as physical. I divorced four years, a person more than two years in Jinan, really eager to let me have a preference for men, to comfort solitude and loneliness. Night lay in his arms, I am selfish to even think: In this city I do not have a fixed circle of friends, not a single center of a circle of life, I do not need to who is responsible, I can play again, this night the past, I or the original me that he is still a friend.
Thus, in the spring of that romantic evening, I enjoyed the warmth of a man. This man is not my husband, and even can not say that I love … …
Why make things difficult for a woman a woman
The fact that I did not imagine that, as dawn broke up after that, on the contrary we are not made to meet frequently and eventually rent a house of cohabitation. Encounter never married when he and I together is such a feeling. I told him understanding, more and more cause he is a very good man, a person with the ability to hard from Yantai to the provincial capital, and his strong operational capabilities, is the backbone of a major department, I also witnessed him a friend of his respect. I also know that his wife is also a very virtuous woman, was at his house, the most difficult times and his marriage, Now a person to work in Yantai, but also with children, serving his parents, and his original home is poured lecythus men do not help. Three months later, all of a sudden, I just woke up from a dream - this is me? I slept in another woman’s husband around, forgetting that they have been hurt, but this injury has been passed on to another woman. I have wholeheartedly love my husband, but he did not cherish, gambling was. Han’s wife, Patience to manage a home, but he is the husband of another city in another gentle woman. I feel guilt, then, in a morning, I left a note addressed to the cold, moved out.
I thought a game that ended in an old story, I was a disgraceful role, I would like to correct, I left him, he has refused to leave me. I left, cold look around for me,My company, a friend’s house, he had to inquire my message, and even in the shopping center Sunday in front of me. I changed the phone, he asked to a new number, and then send me information every day. He said that he was a sincere wish to give me a home, he wants to go back and his wife divorced, and that there is no love marriage is immoral, he should be a house, the money home to his wife, and then and I live together … … every day you fat, fat, sometimes I really was very moved. On several occasions I almost told myself to return to his side, the message written on my phone, Just press a button, my ears rang songs on “why women make things difficult for a woman”; that woman looks like the pain in my brain kept emerging, my hand is back. Why make things difficult for a woman a woman, his wife, where patience to manage a household, she was going to die, the men here want to live to love another woman, she would know, it is a kind of
costume jewelry!
Believe me, if that date is a game, then days later to get along, I have liked this man. I said I like the human touch Jinan abuse, is also thought here, he needs is what I need, how can I sit back and enjoy those too? He finally found me, or in the location of our first date, I can not see his eyes, tears filled her eyes together in love there is love there is begging, let me feel that I left his sins. He said to me: “Why do you consider so many others? Who came to this world a few decades, As long as you my love is sincere, there is no need to worry so much. “I said:” Without me, your wife and children will live a very calm, because I painful dissolution of marriage, the children find it hard to give up on both sides, then not at home so painstakingly built up, and I spent a whole year time, before the wound healed. How do I let another woman had not made any mistake, because I went to bear such suffering? “That night, I failed to convince him, and he can not convince me, and I said I was only a game, he should treasure the original home, he looked at me said:” You play my feelings, I hate you. “
Sleepless night for me. I waver between being admitted and homes, and I come up with two pieces of paper, a painting of his wife, a painting, I, and then write all I can come up with reasons, compared with whom he can leave. My eyes always come forward to the kind-hearted woman in the collapse of pain, his youngest daughter’s innocent face, I can not accept the establishment of calm and suffering in the well-being of others.
Love is more important than what is
These days I have been very trance, walking in the street, and sometimes drive them, and I do not perception. He continued to send me a love or hate or information, even in the information, he said: “son of the hands of bailiffs, with the sub-” I feel that our feelings have not so pure, I can find to describe this the feelings of the right words. He said that there is no love marriage is immoral, when his wife, married with seven match points, the soul, there are three points can not always communicate the three points is what he needs love, and he found me this three points.I do not think so, I think we have more desire. I do not believe that a and his eight years, so that he felt satisfied with the seven women, will be offset with a woman meet by chance that one-third fit! What makes him so Lost? What will not desire?
My friend, his friend even have to persuade me: “to another woman does not want such a result?They gave you this truth, how can you do? “Yes ah, I did not also want a marriage? I, how can this be? I can say, because I think a person in addition to love there are even more important. He and my friends have asked me, What is that? I say is moral and responsibilities, they all shook their heads, they said in the love of the Strip, and moral strength of a too weak. We are talking about emotional outside marriage follow the rules of a game can be, but this game is too difficult to
handmade jewelry, As I have, game after game was still stinging, because I think the strength of moral everywhere ah! He is paid a true feelings, but a “real” characters that people can really cynical it? Really brought it certainly is better?
He said that I abandoned him, I stood a double torment — I live up to his true feelings, I am going to hurt another woman. I have a good long sleep, to sleep 0:00, 4:00 will suddenly wake up, I went swimming, doing their own strength, in the pool would like to yell, Pressure in my heart I can not talk of repentance. Can not have their own favorite love is a pain, a person in the soul and conscience and moral acceptance of torture, is a painful ah!
Foot of snow, I am a kind person, on the bus I will give the elderly a child seat, but how can when I can not help themselves, to love a family man? Do anything to consider the feelings of others, do not want to own, not to impose on people, I live up to his true feelings for him I have guilt, but in this game was always hurt you. My soul and feelings of being a double torment, I should not suffer;His suffering, he also of the suffering, even if we only have itself to blame you, his wife of innocent people, innocent children, not to hurt the innocent, my soul on a relief. I do not want someone to pay me the price again, I hope my experience, my deep sense of guilt, let more people awakening. There I would like through your column to tell the cold: cherish your home, do not lust for their own hurt your family, a person’s happiness is constituted by a combination of factors, and your well-being of the persons concerned Ping’an, and your happiness will be doubled, this is my body from the pain of.